Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Goodbye to Breastfeeding

Hey all...tonight is kind of a sad night. Our nighttime routine has ALWAYS included nursing Jacob and then laying him down to sleep. I have been actively weaning and have him down to nursing once a day, very seldom twice. I knew eventually I would try to get him to sleep without nursing. Last night I gave it a try and he bawled and looked at me like I was crazy and I also felt like I could start crying at any moment to, so I scooped him up and nursed him. I think it saved both of our sanities.

So, I gave it another try tonight and he cried for about 10 minutes while I cringed and had to hold myself back from running in and scooping him up again and nursing him. I know I can't nurse him forever and we are taking a trip this summer and he will not be with us, so it had to happen.

It's really really a sad thing....it's hard to just stop something that you've been doing for 14 months, too and feels like we're losing a connection we have had.

Also, does anyone have any ideas for what to do about the engorgement in the next few days? Just live with it? I don't think I should pump b/c then I'll keep producing, right? Any feedback is VERY welcome.

2 comments:

Gina said...

Hi Leann,

We have not been through this yet, but I know the day will come (probably sooner than Ani or I would like). And I know nighttime will be the hardest.

As we have not done this yet, I have no advice. I just wanted you to know that you have a friend thinking of you as you and Jacob work through this challenge.

Please post a comment, for all of us who have yet to wean, to let us know how it goes.

Let's get together for a play date soon.

Gina

Lisa said...

Hey,
When I did this with Alex instead of nursing I gave him a bottle or when it was not mealtime his pacifier. But I had him in my arms and we cuddled until he was asleep or soothed. It made me feel better to be there, even when I was not nursing and he "didn't feel abandoned." Maybe that would work for you as well?